You are, the only exception.

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Le Femme

Shi Pinn a.k.a Spoony
Over here, i'll have a million contradictions on how i feel, who i want to be, and who i'll never be.

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Say Something?

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Blow you away.

Eve
Jas Babe
Jasmine
Junsi
Meiwen
Qibin
Yvonne
ZhengGang
ZiWei

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While i'm still sober,

Tuesday, June 29, 2010 / 12:12 AM

I've just realised(which i admit is a tad slow) that my posts for the month of june have been highly emotional. I jotted down every of my thoughts, feelings, memory. But were they all inner most parts of me? Nearly there i'll say. There are still hold-backs(sad to say) on what i really feel, and what dare to type on this lil space of mine. I'm no fake. I just can't bring myself to hope that someone in this part of this big world can comprehend half of what i have written. I don't wish to feel as empty as a lil girl who has just lost her grip on her balloons which she tried so hard to hold on to. And when there is nothing that could be done to bring back the joy that has been blown away by the wind, but only to stare at the vast blue sky, watching them disappearing. I fell, i healed. I stumbled, i got up. But the underlying nature of all humans is that, we all love to pick at our wounds. Instantly i take a quick glance at my thumb. The very thumb which is typing all these. I could put a plaster, to stop the pain, to stop the itch of my fingers picking at the wound. But like my own life, i can't define whats this force that's stopping me. And why i stupidly let it. The reason why i'm overwhelmed with thoughts again tonight, was a simple sentence from a friend, who's only known me for 2months. "You always start off talking about something but in the end you're actually keeping all the thoughts to yourself." I admit it. I tell people so much things most of the time but it also pains me to realise that not many REALISE that i'm not even telling them the main point of the conversation. My words may make sense, yet at the same time, i know very well that they're incomprehensible. But people don't point that out. It's either too difficult a task for them to be a wee bit more concerned, or they simply don't care.. :( Most of the time i only wish for someone to look at me in the eyes and say: "Tell me everything." And i will. Now dearest july, won't you come to me a lil faster. For i can't wait any longer to breathe in a new beginning.

No point tryna evade it.

Monday, June 28, 2010 / 1:49 AM

Whatever you wanna say, say it straight to my face. Come on. We're not some immature 12yr old xmm. I did wrong, and i admitted to it, apologised to it. Probably it wasn't enough for you but its all i could do. We all lead different lives dear. I can't possibly explain every hiccup that occurred, and i didn't think i needed to. I thought more of our friendship to be a mere mirage. If you can't comprehend my life, or accept it, i don't see any use in explaining myself further. I really don't see eye to eye on your way of communication. But if this is what you want, i'm continuing what you started.

Thursday, June 24, 2010 / 2:26 AM

190th post. Hell yeah memorable. Tonight i ran away like a coward, a fool. And i mean literally. I wished the bus ride wouldn't have to end, entitling me a chance to break down once i got off it. All the efforts to tilt my head high up to stop those unworthy tears came to naught. I felt pathetic. I felt lost. Most of all, i felt less of the girl i knew last night. So much lesser. I thought of the people who loved me, who would do anything to put a halt to my wallows of self destruction. But how can they? When the only one who can save me, is and will always be, myself. 4.04am. I told myself: Give it till dawn breaks. But as usual, i don't stick to the rules i set upon myself. I would really love a bowl of whipped cream now. Cuz that'll probably be the only thing that can make me feel better, now.

Monday, June 21, 2010 / 10:07 PM

rainbow umbrella Pictures, Images and Photos

To see the sky in its bluest days
To feel the wind against my skin
To hear the raindrops fall
And smell the serenity it brings

With all these, i can put aside my other longings, for the time being ...

Saturday, June 19, 2010 / 10:55 AM

Right now i only can think of a CON from a work(as in PROs and CONs). Is that if you're too attached, you can't bring yourself to reject their requests to take over someone, when they call you early in the morning when you just managed to catch a wink or two, and you go on to cancel all your dates for the day, praying hard that they'll understand. Cuz you see, not many do. So here i am, guilt-stricken, tired, sick, trying to find some entertainment to cheer myself on a little.
Here goes nothing!

Spongebob not enough for you?

How do people do that! Its like cracking me up so badly even when i laughed my head off with my sis last night already. SUPER LOL.

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This, is so sick. HAHAHAHAHHAHA, BYE!<3

/ 1:24 AM

Trains in the sky
Are travelling through the fragments of time
They're taking me to parts of my mind
That no one can find

好累好累好累。
只想逃离这里，无声无息的，
哪里都好。
真的，哪里。。都好。。↲
From this place where others can rest their heart. From this place where others get showered with care and concern. From this place, which i can't even cook up a suitable name for. I might be replying to all the comments from fb right now, i might be joking around with you on msn right now, i might be texting you abt my day right now, but no one, no one knows my struggle with the piece-ing back of my heart(again). Before the last drop of my sanity evaporates, i really need someone, right now.

Thursday, June 17, 2010 / 10:42 PM

Im so obsessed with tumblr photos lately!
BUT NO, im not gonna get myself one.
Im in for a light hearted mood today, are you?
Here's a lil something for Ling-Ers! :)
For Meiwen,

For Eve,

For Jas babe,

For Qibin,

Have a great wkend in adv! ^^

The Adventures of Freako&Fairy

Wednesday, June 16, 2010 / 9:46 PM

12thJune

Balestier Road for bak kut teh. Clarke Quay.

(internet photo)

Walls full of celebrities photos!
Well of cuz the place was too packed for me to walk around(even though its already 1am plus)to view all of them.. OKAY OKAY. i paiseh to do it,
but,the soup was super delicious!
My first try at Singapore style BKT ^^

Sorry wen, didnt get the night shots!
Firstly, phone shots are totally FAIL.
And i was too totally immersed in the bustling
lil area of Singapore. The place totally spelled LOVE to me.

I dont understand why i can sit at the bungee jumping area,
scaring myself silly at every sudden jump.
But one of my goals in life=GO ON IT ONE DAY.SOMEDAY.

13thJune

Kbox-ed with Jess,Jason and Sul after their work!
My first time singing SO many english songs cuz Sul is
from indonesia. It was really fun cuz i have never really given
english songs any thought when im in kbox :P

Look at those cute pink twirls!!

To Eve,Binn and Caspar:
IM REALLY SORRY. You guys probably hated me that day but,
i still am guilty. Im willing to kowtow to you 3 next time we meet, really.
Hope you guys had fun though!

14thJune

Night safari after class.Jalan kayu.East coast park.

And my fave, Night safari :>
Im actually quite shocked to find out a large number
of people around me havent been to NS even till now.
OMG, pls, gogogo! Its amazingness is beyond words that i can type.

These past nights have been most fruitful.
Reaching home at 5-6plus in the morning to K.O.
But as the cold chills are reaching to every part of my
exposed skin now, im snapping back to reality.
With my parents in the background, you get the picture.
No more late nights till dont know when T.T
Happy mode still being turned on though,hope it lasts!
And here's something for all of you,

Tuesday, June 15, 2010 / 6:36 AM

6.38am. If happiness could burn calories, tonight i'd have been a supermodel.

SS501 - Love Ya, MBLAQ- Y(again)

Saturday, June 12, 2010 / 4:15 AM

Eve, dont say i never support your SS501!
I have always loved Jungmin's pretty face+deep vocals.
OMOMOMOMOMOMOMOMO. Super charismatic.
First place somemore! My poor MBLAQ.
Freak im infested with kpop more than ever.
Only if someone give me some good Mandarin songs now..

And, just load the whole video, and watch it from 2.53.
SERIOUSLY, JOON, Dont show it to too many girls~

oh glorious food!

/ 3:47 AM

Had a lovely dinner with Gab and Jae after class on Monday.
Man, what a great way to deal with your monday blues!
And thanks a million again for the treat, it was so good,
i can still taste the cheese from the fish and chips on my tongue :P

Had these Okonomiyaki(s) at Botejyu's with freako yesterday.
They look really great but i guess its not what i have in mind..
Cuz.. NO(okay not much, if you consider 2prawns and few strips of bacon,
and an egg)MEAT! >.<

This is funny. "Size doesnt matter,baby!"

My sis bought me Mirotic from China and omg its not fake one okay!
And a cute wooden "poster" where i can hang on my wall!!
No kidding, my one and only DBSK album(:
Saranghaeyo.

And my sis's friend who did this! For beast!
Hopefully she can win and get to go the autograph session/showcase.
Its cute dont you think? :)

Gonna have a few fruitful days ahead!
And check out the mv for my blogsong if you havent,
cuz its the best one i've seen in a while.(Posted it sometime ago)
晚安!

Wednesday, June 9, 2010 / 10:38 PM

I know. I've always known. Yet somehow people have this way of wriggling into your hearts and mind, making you easily destructable at the slightest words and actions(to them). Like i said, i am but a sandcastle.

And to think this is the only thing that could put a smile on my face today. I'm pathetic, don't need to tell me that.

Monday, June 7, 2010 / 11:31 PM

(11.32pm) Its raining. I've lost track how long it has been since the last rainy day. Instead of snuggling under my blanket, curl up with my wawas, and get some proper eye-shut, i've been lying on the cold floor, thinking of 101ways to define what i've been feeling. I thought the chills would serve as a great help in letting one remain clear-headed and partial in my judgements. But its the corners of my mouth that i couldn't help myself to stop lifting that are clouding my decisions.

(2.59am) What is this route that i've just embarked on gonna lead me? Can i survive yet another chapter that'll scar me so badly? Why am i concluding on things which i don't even rmb havin a head start on? I don't know. i only know that the old me is gone. And the new one is willing to step it up, and embrace whatever that comes in my way..

Sunday, June 6, 2010 / 3:32 AM

And yes,truly,I am :) *edited on 9thjune* I thought i was. But the cold hard truth is that, 你担心会失去的快乐，从来就不是属于你的。'Nuff said.

Labels: this looks like an artsy fartsy shot right hehehehhe

/ 2:59 AM

My speed in life is accelerating wayyyyyy too fast.
I need to put a halt, and quick.

骗钱的!! XD
Nevertheless, it was yummy-licious!

Fatball modelling with my fave obsession lately hehe.

Went to fetch my sis home yesterday at 7am uhhh!
Had work after that even, so you can imagine.. *:*
And a big big thank you to freako who drove me and fatball there! :>

Went to food expo with family last wk.
Regrets still fill every inch of my heart for not
being able to take part in it this time.
After all the wait from all these years somemore :/

Stumbled into some gaming expo hall for the sake of fatball,
and went on STAGE to take part in some starhub game activity.
Its a 2-to-2 challenge and so LUCKY that me and fatball were the only
ones standing near the stage(besides the pair of guys that were already on stage,courageously), kena asked on it by the audience T.T
It was so so embarassing but i still rung my brother to come and see us.
HAHAHHAHA. Anyway, we lost and got some consolation package,
which consists of this mug and a few chapbalang things with starhub
printed all over them. Some experience this is!

No need for further explainations ^^

I JEALOUS YOU GOING ON A TRIP LA. >.<
Hmph. Going to emo now.

Wednesday, June 2, 2010 / 5:30 AM

Today was probably one of the toughest day i've been through. I wanna write this down before the initial feelings fades. So here goes. I prayed all the way, on the way home, hoping for a miracle. A miracle that will not put us in despair, doubt, and whatever we are now. Its been tough on you guys, the one who pulled the trigger. But i guess its time you made a decision. The only difference is we probably made it for you. Deep in my heart, as well as all others, you would never be forgotten, i'm sure. And though things are the way it is now, tears shed, hearts wounded, the only thing i'd love you to know is, how painful this was. For all of them. This is gonna be another hurdle i needa cross. By myself. Nights/Good morning earthlings. You need not care abt this post and i enjoyed my day with you very much, Evefuu:)