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Thursday, July 16, 2009 /
1:29 PM
Im really on the verge of breaking down.
In simpler words,
i do not want to feel the irritation whenever someone
walks into the store.
i do not want to attempt to greet my customers without
ending up failing it miserably.
i do not want to keep harping on why why WHY just
some people can just shirk all their
responsibilities with just a phone call or msg.
It is not fair dear. Its bloody not.
Does anybody know how hard i try every morning,
trying to hold back my tears & refrain myself from thinking:
"why am i doing this",
and quickly force myself to get ready for work.
Dramatic? Imagine yourself going thru the same
phase 6days a wk for nearly 2 mths now.
Trying to apply your mascara to as thick as possible
to cover up for the tiredness of your eyes.
Putting on lipstick and whatever moisturisers
you can find to hide your pale lips.
Brushing blushers so pinkish to enable
yourself to look at least healthy, awake.
It is not meant to be a chore you know.
I want to look good, but not cause of this reason.
But yet despite all these efforts,
i still look dead.
Meek smiles i can give, but the hype in me is missing.
For the time being i can only hope.
i do not want to "enjoy" my food in the way i am doing now too.
Getting fast food almost for every meal,
trying to gorge them down within 15mins.
I want a proper meal, and to relieve how much
joy food brings for me.
I want to catch the movies which i intended to weeks ago.
I want to go shopping, and not just buying clothes and acessories
from my own store cause i dont even have the chance
to step into other stores.
Not effective timetable planning you say?
I have no choice but to push all these
thoughts & desires away because i cldnt
NOT sleep as much as possible.
Neither wld i want to meet my loved ones
with a soul-less me.
Its unfair.
I cannot exactly say how much i appreciate those
comforting msgs i receive every single day and time
when i back out from the constant meet-ups.
I will be fine, cause im TANGCHI.
And cause i have so many people's
unconditioned love.
And because after typing all these out,
i feel energized already. Good to go.
See??
When you move fast they cant getcha...
Will post more useful posts soon.
Fighting!! ^^v
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