KIM JAE JOONG(:

Last words as a 19 yr old

2011-12-31T08:36:00.002+08:00

With twitter as my new tool, I've nearly forgotten the existence of this little cave I once painstakingly built. Every word, every comma, every full stop, marks every emotion that was once bubbling in me. It's the last day of 2011. And yet I've not accomplished anything that will put a smile on my face whenever I think of it. Someone that I know wouldn't come by me again, some things I had the courage to change the way it ended. The past 2 days have been fantastic. Bloody hell. I have amazing friends. Tonight's going to be another sugar high night I know. As every year passes my love for Cactus hasn't decreased one bit. Instead my yearning to be part of it gets stronger everytime. Then again there are things and memories are better left untouched. That way they'll remain the favorite part in your life. It's the big 20 tmr! Please give me the strength to be braver, smarter, always kind, always thankful and beautiful in all aspects. Choices people, choices. Make wise ones this year. Have a regrets-free 2012! xx

DA JIE DA. Forever.

2011-11-21T15:15:00.002+08:00

As im uploading the photos i realized that we have been celebrating Jess's bday during her break time at work. Now you may think we're all a bunch of badass but NO!
It's cuz she always returns to M'sia to celebrate her actual bday and thus we always surprise her at work! :)

This year's one was super hardcore. We covered her whole head with a bag(poor girl) and led her all the way to the restaurant downstairs. With the whole process filmed. haha!

Spoilt with choices, or in this case, presents!

Card reading first..

Then plunges in for the biggest box!

Looking so happy like she never see clothes before!

"hahahahha jess never see clothes before!!"

"hope that this is a pair of shorts so can match match"

"holy cow! they really do love me!"

Now for the ultimatum..

Ohmaigod its Kate Spade!

Moon's run for president pose/thankyou thankyou for liking the present i chose pose

"Everyday is a happy day when i see you"
I know that this will never end!<3

Blood ties.

2011-11-03T14:37:00.002+08:00

Brought my family(except my brother) up to skypark for the first time and i knew they were really excited! but we were there a tad too late thus no good clear tourisy shots taken. My sis is already way taller then me but she still wore heels that day.
Just look at the difference!

AND THAT- was the last of my long hair.

Headed to NEX and IKEA tgt for the first time, again without my brother.
Dude if you're reading this, i know you were pissed. But everyone makes efforts,
if you chose to make more efforts with your girl and friends, which is nothing wrong,
then dont come and complain we make plans without you.
I dont want to lose you either but it takes 2 hands to clap.

Oooo these are too cute not to be posted! Love the vibrant colors :D

And the nyancat game ive been so obsessed with. Ive been forcing ppl to download it HAHAHA

Then.. i went for an even shorter cut out of the blue.
Honestly i couldnt even smile. I could only do this.
Of course, i never do anything out of the blue.
Whatever the reason was, it has happened!
And i cant wait to perm my hair and act like a korean mwahhaha.

Tried to do a perm on my own and somehow it looked like this.
Pls dont tell me i look like an auntie. I'll break down & cry LOL.

I think i look happy(and fat)!
I'll be back soon :D

Ding a ling a ling

2011-11-02T01:32:00.005+08:00

Last published 16 Sep! Holy cow this is bad. hahaha.
I have pictures and words mountain high to post.

Met up with this girl on the day i was going to have my braces on.
With her being the braces expert, we went to have a feast before i put them on!
I could still rmb me being all jittery and cowardly the whole day, esp on the train
towards the dentist. The number of times i went to the toilet was enough to piss her off for the whole year. hahaha!

First picture after the whole process!
Thank you for accompanying the whole 3 fat hours in there, watching Alvin and the chipmunks and filming me! Really appreciated!

Eggcited me with the eggcited braces-soon-to-be jasmine too!

Birthday lunch for Jas babe in a nice quiet restaurant in Bugis.
That stephen chow kungfu movie, sudden uplift of spirits at the mention of meiwen's grades, quick updates on happy and not-so-happy stuffs (:

Ooo cutie pies at skypark! hehe random.

Another ultimate cutie pie i've been obsessed since years ago!

*melts* Anw this is from a korean drama "Scent of a woman"!

Dined at OC's Sarang with Ellie after work one day and met Binn for ddeokbokki
before meeting Jas and Caspar for bak kut teh!

The music played on the day with Ellie was all bigbang and 2NE1's but i dont know
what went wrong on the day with binn. It was playing all sorts of weird emo songs we've never heard of. Thanks to the gloomy weather i guess.

If you've noticed we're missing Eve here.
Still looking forward to a reunion for all of us together.
It's not easy but hey, a girl can dream!

Extremely brain fried now..
Gdnight to all living things reading this now x

You(all are) what keeps me up at 2.02am

2011-09-16T02:36:00.003+08:00

Harro minnasan!
Awfully ashamed at myself for the mega slow updates.
Im having a course tmr morning and here i am typing away to clear off my blogging debts.
I hope this appeases all you non-existent fans.
Please dont mind me talking to myself!

The instax spam craze actually started with us meeting for dinner and shoot mini videos for someone whom wants to ask our friend
Glynis, "Will you be my girlfriend ?" on her bday. Both Alicia(in the first photo) & khloe are supposed to hold "Will you be..." and make
funny faces and all and someone else will continue the video.
It was damn awkward and funny and i think we practically made a din in MOS burger.
Decided to use the props on our own and i think the instax looked amazing!
Thus.. led to another outing. This time brought sailormoon to meet chongshun and william as well.

We are all supposed to bring props(obviously the guys didnt bother) and this cute dino on the box of the snack i was eating randomly
at work became the star of the night. hahahahahahha

Normal one at first.

Ipad, fake tears, drunkard all came out lol!

Im still pretty amazed at the fake eyes and drool and ideas that suddenly popped out of nowhere.
Guess this is what they say when you're with the right people, everything will just fall in place (:

Boo!

Went tampines to give an auntie a birthday treat along with my mum and as soon as my brother heard i was paying he came to meet us immediately.
Kns, Other things i dont see him so enthusiastic.
Btw the ice cream was only $1 and it tasted real good!

Sudden crave for cheese shaker fries though it was alr 1am plus i pulled my sis to Macs after picking up her from town.
She didnt get to stay out till so late much so the lil girl was pretty happy!

My tint & her tint. HAHHAHAHA. this is embarrassing.
My tint is not dirty n moudly n old. Its just that the outer layer is rolling in my makeup pouch everyday and you can imagine the amt of powder accumulated in the pouch. Inside still can use one ok!
"Never judge a tint by its bottle"- Spoon

Met Jooyee for a really quick lunch(sorry baby!)and rushed in the theatre to catch Crazy Stupid Love.
The rush was so worth it. i give the movie 9.5/10!
next time im gonna sit there and you tell me your stuffs.
Gonna hafta train you to speak up more! (:

Pretty cafe? Before we went in, i took this picture for blogging usage.
Sat down, looked at menu, hesitate for 10seconds and we fled the place. LOL.
Sailormoon still very shy at these kind of things but my skin is thicker hahhahaa.

"how to pose with this??!?" Luv moon's eye smile! awww,,,,

Guess im done for. Polka dot addiction!!!

Ponyo came to join us for dinner! I cant quite rmb the details on that day
but i always rmb a lot of laughing.
OH! Trying to speak with Malaysian accent. Thats what we've been doing for the past few wks. We spoke in that accent in JB as well to protect ourselves haha.

This is one hell of a long post. Hope this will feed on your appetites for a while.
Adios!

P/S: i just saw a blogger app :D

Pinky promise.

2011-08-26T01:32:00.002+08:00

Suddenly I see it. Something I should have long ago. All my life I've been trying to be someone else. I always prefer what they're wearing, how they look like, the way they walk, the way they can fit in, the way they can speak their minds without sparing a thought for others. Probably the last one seems wrong but mind you, I still have people around me doing that. But I admire that. Today onwards, I'm gonna be proud of what I wear, and who I really am. I still might not show it to many of you but I hope I can soon. I'll stop trying to fit in. If it doesn't work out, I guess I'll just have to do without. It's been a struggle but I believe life works its miracles in many ways. Everything is, gonna be alright x

Happy daze.

2011-08-15T02:08:00.004+08:00

Everytime when the mood sets in for me to blog,
the time taken to upload the photos kills it.
I'd be so sleepy and lazy by then...
So please dont blame me for the lack of updates.. blame photobucket. hee.

Rilakkuma pouch from Ken!
Tried re-downloading & re-uploading 3 times to show Von's pink one but it had an error.
Sorray!!

Did our french manicures and had lunch at this really nice thai restaurant in shaw house. The taste was just right! Definitely heading back to try other dishes.

I must master her fish braid "tumblr hair" soon!

"All got sequence one" hahaha.
Love dinner dates after work like these!
It's the effort and time ppl choose to put in that counts.

The sexy pose from jess becuz we were trying to cover our black roots LOL.

"high tea" dinner with khloe & william.

We ended up spamming all kinds of faces on instax!
Kinda pricey but it was fun! haha!

Sorry but this is what you get from an annoyed girl who doesnt get her bill even after asking it for 3 times.
Im nice enough already ok! I even drew them a sun!

Waraku Pasta!

Finally finally finally met up with my dear MEIWEN.
On the day i failed to get my braces!
I guess some things really do happen for a reason aye?

Went to jurong point and boy was i captivated by this mini Japan food street.
It wasnt exactly perfect but the effort is recommendable!!

Had 5hrs of HTH talk with her and of course.. spamming of weird funny faces.
Shall post them soon. There's at least 30 pictures?? :O

As you can see the differences in the quality of the pictures..
I must say i fail miserably in the art of photoshop.
I shall leave them to the pros a.k.a PONYO & SAILORMOON.
hehe!

Shall end here with a photo of a bunny...

(BHB TO THE MAX HAHAHHAHAHA)

and a bear!

Popping off x

299th.

2011-08-07T03:03:00.002+08:00

Desperate times asks for desperate measures.
3.03am, in need of remedy.

Okay. Bed time.

I wonder how they sleep at night.

2011-07-26T01:51:00.002+08:00

helloooo!
Im trying to frequent my visits to blogger so i wont lose any more photos/memories,
like when i lost my previous iphone.
Oh well!

Visited the dentist finally and heres the xray showing my very obvious rabbit teeth!
Mould shaped, teeth extracted. Whats left now is to wait for another 2 wks to put on the metal!! Excited for now, though i know im gonna regret it once i hv it on ahaha.

Jenna: "you're spoon im fork"
Super sweet of her to get me lil gifts everytime we meet!
Though its just a few hrs in the morning but its the efforts we take to meet that counts.

The cutest and yummiest cupcake i ever eaten from Von!
Instant heartmelt when you receive this at work<3

Had the privilege of watching the fireworks at a very special lvl for 3 times this year.

My shy rilakkuma's butt, favorite ring and my priddy nails i had to remove away cuz of work :(

Okie finally now i know what colors suits me now!
Gonna go hunting once i get my pay wheeeeee!

@sailormooooon this is the highest i could get my hair bunned up, with the help of my sis and mum and a hell lotta clips.
My hair's way too heavy.. Please work your magic on me soon!

Best advice anyone can give/receive.
Have a lil more faith in life my dears.
It isnt so bad, if you choose to embrace its imperfections.

Adios!

It's never too late for changes.

2011-07-20T03:03:00.002+08:00

Back for more updates of my current working place!
Dont share i nv update ah.. haha!

Took a few moments in the morning before opening to enjoy the peace and serenity from up there. The clouds, th way the sun sets everyday, is simply breathtaking.
Though the sun part is not to our favour.. Because everyday the sun will shine directly onto our face and you cannot SIAM!
And you still have to serve your guests with a smile with eyes like -.-
But theres no more hard labour for me. That i cannot deny.
Gonna get a pair of shades tmr!

Happy me at my first day at QUBE!

RICH KID.
But so? I was holding his hands for 1hr plus watching movie as he fell ill.
He suddenly cried and said his mum promised to come back and play with him.
His mum signed him in at 10am and only brought him back at 6pm.
Why?
Because she was too busy gambling.
Really at a loss for words with these precious kids. Im pretty damn emotional abt things like these..
You cannot imagine the joy on his face when his mum FINALLY came back n took him.
I nearly teared.

Regular at QUBE. Dad leaves her in qube everyday after her sch, till the place closes at 10. Why?
He lies to her that he works in MBS. Which in actual fact gambles EVERYDAY.
She's a bright 11yr old. I wouldnt be surprised if she even knows the truth.

Me acting cute LOL.

Movies ive watched so far with the kids: High school musical 1&2, Tangled, 17 again(OMG I CLD WATCH ZAC EFRON FOREVERRR),Kungfu Panda, Madagascar, Alvin and the chipmunks 1&2.

But of course, i do not just sit down there 2hrs to watch movie with 1kid. I play the air hockey, ping pong, zombies vs plants, all other ps3/xbox games, UNO, drawing, bring kids to toilet,handle their whinings,shower a bit more love when they feel jealous. OMG. It's all fun but imagine taking care of 8 kids at a go.
And everyone's pulling you around. Rlly wanna pull my hair and shout AHHHHH!!!
And you know their energy lvl. Its limitless. Im old already T.T

Dont like to drink soyabean milk but these are too cute to be missed!
Getting them to kick start my day every morning ^^

3.38am now.. Important day tmrw!
Shd sleep now before another pimple in me decides to pop out.
Fingers crossed!

P/S: Im sure all harry potter fans already know but.. This hottie here plays Neville Longbottom. That funny looking chubby kid.
This world is unfair.

Would you call your own child ugly?

2011-07-18T01:13:00.004+08:00

Finally photobucket decides not to be a bitch and i cant sleep.
Long overdued but still!

Made a surprise cake for lao bu on mothers' day and she was quite pleased with it!

My siblings complained that my design was too plain :(
Damn you guys i only had like 10mins to design and at least 1000 brain cells
in me was fried while thinking what to draw with my primary sch standard skills!
But honestly, i think i did a good job *self-praise*

And this is Mike's for his mum. Pretty cool huh!

Headed to Pornsak's Thai restaurant for 2nd round as mum rlly loves Thai Food.

Just as im blogging these im telling Jenna how dysfunctional my family is.
Its kinda like a happy house on the set but behind the curtains after hours,
i can only hope i get to sleep in peace. Oh well.

And some photos from the set of Spy Myung Wol! The series is out can start watching already :)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_embedded&v=H4cmgPEDn7k

Here's the trailer featuring MBS scenes! Feels good to see a korean drama having scenes from somewhere you're so familiar with :D

Haha fake fan girls.

He was keeping his cool ALL NIGHT so when he finally gave way and smiled at a fan's words or something everyone was furiously snapping their cameras and phones away.

It was a very badly planned night and you cannot imagine the shooting that lasted till 2am in the morning would only be screened for less then 1min??
From all different angles,timings, screams not loud enough, not shouting at the right timing. Gosh. It was then i finally grasped the concept of shooting a drama.
Its bloody hard. Kudos to all the ppl who gave us wonderful dramas to watch!

I know this is out of nowhere but this is actually how funny i look when im sleeping.
And how dark i am. Bleah.
Be back soon peeps! ^^

3 birthdays

2011-06-29T16:52:00.003+08:00

Clara Low that smelly armpit girl!
Celebrated her 22nd at Swensen's after our work.
Felt kinda bad nothing extragavant was planned but that silly girl was super appreciative nonetheless.

Choosing her birthday ice-cream. That auntie was mad happy hahhaha!

Ended the day with us bombing instax for her to keep.
Am gonna leave the pool pretty soon.. Hope that our one last chinese girl standing will survive x

Went to Karen's facebook and realised.. She didnt upload her birthday photos O_O
LOL. Nevertheless, here's two photos for my Ling-Ers.

P/S:Meiwen & Jas: You two took my phone for so long and only took one photo??
PP/S: MISS YOU A LOT EVE. Lets have a proper grp photo real soon :)

Lastly, Khloe's 23rd! Specially planned by Alicia, William, Chongshun and of course, ME! :D Mwahahahaha. Not forgetting the girl who came in with two oranges to wish her a happy birthday ( YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE )

Since the birthday girl was gonna be in the mountains on her birthday, we decided to plan our seemingly innocent staycation in MBS to an advanced bday celebration.

( just an excuse to put ma face here )

Macham some fan meeting session. There were like at least 2 cameras, 5 iphones, 3 instant cameras all on her! It felt like the longest time a birthday girl had to hold on to her cake haha.

My colleagues: You want to find Spoon ah, spot the balloons!

Ever since i worked at Skypark they've been dying to head up but the security and rules got stricter over time so didnt manage to bring them up.
Still rmb how happy they were! :)

Slept at 4, woke up at 6, waited till 7 for MR SUN to come up!
It was crazy! Only 3 of us were crazy enough to do that lol.
But the view was worth it all. Pictures does no justice to the exuberant feeling we all had. Especially from such a height we were at!

Headed to all the sauna facilities after that and again the crazy trio went to sing to end the day. Not forgetting us falling asleep on and off in the ktv room.

OK. I know you are tired of reading already.
TO BE CONTINUED..

im sucha lousy blogger.
Wish i was XX so no matter how long my post is people will still sarpork it. HAHAHA.
Till then!

Happiness is pancakes, Rilakkuma & lots of whipped cream.

2011-06-27T03:40:00.003+08:00

Sunday night.. Working away when I could have a slice(make it 2) of pizza in front of the tv, and then down it all with glasses of Coke with the family. It doesn't matter what you're watching, it's the feel of doing it. Damn even thinking of it makes me high. Gonna bomb this space reaaaal soon. Not that it really makes a difference because we're all so preoccupied with twitter & fb. Never had the thought of owning a tumblr because it will really mean the end of my social life. All I have left will be a social network LOL. Anyway, gotta wave goodbye to June pretty soon. Can't rmb much about it as there was a lot to take in. And my pea brain could only store livid images of me and my girls- the heart to my beat. So involved in each others' lives now that I'm awfully afraid of losing them. Can't quite imagine the pain. Let us make things work in the month of July and become happier girls! Hakuna matata! X

Degeneration.

2011-06-04T23:31:00.002+08:00

At least 10 things on my mind. 但是话到嘴边，又说不出来。不敢发言，不敢出声，不敢为自己所相信的站起来. It's not gonna be long before I become into someone I fear the most - not able to share anything with anyone. I'm having skin problems and what I see in the mirror has actually been devastating for years. "nah where got!? My one worse then you!" Scars on legs are annoyingly persistent, and I'm still disgustingly wearing shorts & dresses. Does anyone know I'm feeling inferior every second every minute I'm with you girls? All the prettiness and good sense of fashion. I want to wake up and feel fresh and not needing to spend time trying to look at least presentable before I even dare to leave my doorstep. Yes, I'm that horrible. Without makeup I'm nothing. Trash is the word. "no la where got so serious you look ok without makeup too! I see you before without what!" Maybe the world is as timid as I am, not willing to tell me the truth, but rather hurt me again with lies. No.. Those does not console me at all. But then again.. What can? I don't know what's wrong with me anymore. That's the part that scares me most.

Evolution.

2011-05-30T02:23:00.003+08:00

Seems a little zilian.. But these are the "me" where i felt most happy.
Browsing thru photobucket tryin to clear off photos but found these instead.
Not needing eyeliner, blusher or lipstick.
Why oh why spoony have you become who you are now.
I dont like you no more.

2011-05-25T18:26:00.002+08:00

Okay lets have a (sudden) change of mood.
Brighten up things a lil!

Nah it's actually just an excuse to post up these photos.
Gee how scheming i can be.

Ah ah ah ah staying alive

2011-05-24T22:56:00.005+08:00

Haven't been writing for so long. It's like almost foreign to me. This feeling of tapping furiously on my phone.. Gosh I missed it. I'm writing to keep myself sane. I know I ain't very good at this but it's like some kind of self therapy for myself. Works.. Fine? No? I don't know. Honestly I don't even care. It has been another one of those weeks where everything that could possibly go wrong, does. And you just don't have any ability to guard yourself or your heart against them. I thank all the lovely girls by my side. Most of them don't even know anything but just their prescence alone, makes me feel loved. And for someone like me, love is precious. I won't say I've gained easy access to many people's hearts but mine alone, is one tough nut to crack. There's a bunch I could say 'I knew you would give up on me' to, and that's when I realize what a flop i have been.. Goody.. I'm feeling the sleepiness again. How long more can i do this.. Allowing my body to take over my mind so I'd hv lesser thinking time. Oh well.. Till then.

Because its with you, i feel at home.

2011-05-03T17:04:00.003+08:00

Hello all, im terribly sorry i left this place for soooooo long.
I didn't realise how much ive been up and running around till i browse thru the
photos in my phone and woahhhhhhhhhhhhh.
Have been a pretty rough month.. I dont know why but.. i just dont fail to get into some kind of highly unexplainable kinda situation in everyway,with anyone.

But you know what. THANK GOODNESS FOR THESE GIRLS.
Its never easy, for different people to come together as one grp,
enjoying ourselves despite our differences because when we're together,
we're ONE. We become so alike in every possible ways its hard to fall apart.
I do cherish all of my friends but sometimes, its impossible to hold on to
everyone because at some point of time, one party decides its too hard to keep trying but hey, no hard feelings cause thats life aint it!
Either you choose to suck it up and be a grown up about it or you're gonna be stuck in that vicious cycle forever.

Gonna be a post filled with my Limited Edition Girls.
You know you love us! ;)

Who ever knew that there was such a beautiful place in singapore?

SKYPARK LOL. Its haunting us everywhere!

Tried bridesmaid dresses with Ponyo! But gonna go again to re-choose the dresses.
Thus, i can show these now hehehe.

Photo of the day hahahaha.

Sailormoon's favourite Happy Bowl!

K-box with Daryl and Ellie! Our fave outlet- *Scape!

Went back to MBS to complete Sailormoon's pre-birthday surprise with her colleagues.
Though it didnt really work out well as a surprise due to spills and leaks here and there but i bet you were still happy girl!

The C.E.O... and her subordinates hahahhaa

Next up was our real birthday date with her!

Love the priceless faces everytime. And why am i so good at always capturing it?
hehehehhee

Typically my food always transforms from this..

To this.

Love my dress! :X

Ultimately after a whole day of twists and turns,

Happy(finally) Sailormoon with her Lomo Camera!
Must bring out to take with us okay! ^^

Need i say more? :)

Hey stranger,

2011-04-15T13:41:00.003+08:00

Finally created after much procrastinating. Close to 50 tweets in 3days. I was born to be a twitterette!! Hahahaha! Desperately needed a space where I could turn those thoughts into words instantly without needing to mince them or afraid of bombing anyone's news feed. But sadly, that too needs a little bit of time and training (; "@pabopoony" oh yeah that's me~ *sings 2NE1's try to follow me*

Back to reality.

2011-04-12T20:38:00.002+08:00

6 days since im back! Have been working non-stop! Wheee!
See how happy i am?? :DD

Really wish i can settle my korea photos soon but..
deactivated my fb due to some reasons.
Really really need to figure out my next step soon.
Have wasted far too many years chasing heartaches.
Everytime i think the next one could be the one, i'd hit turbulence.
But i do know even if everything's like a roller coaster now,
it'll come to an end somehow.

On the other hand,

*tags sailormoon and ponyo and jess*

Singapore.... is not i want. None of it.
And i believe i have sufficient reasons to leave, and sufficient reasons why there's no reason for me not to leave. Hahahaha.

I want to be flawless.
Till then,

What's your dream?

2011-03-30T04:03:00.002+08:00

Holy mama.. I still quite can't believe that in 4hrs time I'll be on an airplane to Korea. The dream which I spoke of to many different people, since how many donkey years. It's gonna be us 3 girls. Spoon Ponyo and Sailormoon. Yea you Shd know why it's us three by now ;) I'm really excited, but of course. But what's taking up most of my heartrate consists of the fear of the unknown. It's gonna be a totally noobie trip depended solely on Internet info and our guts. Honestly I have no idea where we're gonna head. I mean of cuz the itinerary and places to go has been already planned nicely by my girls but still! Anything could happen. And I hope only good things will happen! Another perfect time in my life to get away from this place for a while. Let's let the old dreams die. Bon voyage to myself! Goodbye all xxx

You make me blue~

2011-03-28T17:11:00.004+08:00

今天心情很不好。

***

你们男生都是鸡蛋糕。哼!!

Here and there.

2011-03-27T16:06:00.004+08:00

Best seaweed ive eaten so far!
Caused such a huge buzz at work- thanks to Sailormoon!

Didnt wanna look like such a noobie so pardon me for the lousy photo haha.
But you can roughly see the chefs standing in a line serving us high class food!
One hour break, half of the time was spent on queuing!

Late night out with Khloe, William and Chongshun.
Supper at Changi Village and roamed the whole area.
My favourite thing to do (:

Journey on foot alone. 45mins to reach home at 3am.
Was desperately in need of direction, thus the dangerous thought.
It was so nerve wrecking i could feel someone about to jump out from
any corner!

Hk Cafe @Marina Square with Von, Jenna and Ethan.

Check out the irony yourself (;

A lost-looking ponyo. haha!
Lovely Marche lunche date with Alayna, Ellie and Jasmine
before Alayna went back to Melbourne..
Miss you girl!

My newphew in Hongkong.. and his girlfriend??!?
Kids these days. Amazes me everytime!

Yesterday i hurt my arm at work and it was kinda bad.
And boy.. was i surprised at the number of people who were concerned.
Fb posts, smses, calls.
It makes me feel that.. 我没白活了。
Being alive for so long, i must have done something right to deserve
all these ppl in my life.
My two saviours- Ponyo and Sailormoon accompanied me all the way to CGH
to get my X-ray done.
Really really really appreciate you two a lot.
Hopefully my injury wouldn't be a hindrance to our Korea Trip!
Around 2 more days to go. AZA AZA! ^.^v

Ⅲ

2011-03-22T22:28:00.003+08:00

Finally a meet-up with Molihua & Ahlianhua after a year hiatus!
Hopefully from now on it'll be at least one time per month :)

First photo of the day already is candid XD

To Everyone!

在你们面前不必遮掩，是因为，你们也是如此的真诚。

We're gonna try this next time right? Hehe!
回头见 :)

Oh my pretty pretty..

2011-03-19T19:20:00.002+08:00

Well i'll say its been one hell of a week! Make it two!
As you age, you'll start to realize the things that you'll regret most aren't the mistakes you made, but the things you dare not do.
I can't say i gave it my all but for a weakling like me,
it's all i can handle.

Thoroughly enjoyed 5days of freedom a while ago while my parents were away.
Tasted the lovely nights on the tip of my tongue, the sweet feeling that'll never go away even if you leave it for a while.

11 more days to Korea. 3 crazy emo gals. 1 unforgettable trip.
Still feeling the jitters!
Time for some painkillers :>

A question, and a reminder, for all of you.
Deepest condolences to the Japanese.. and all the other people who were involved in the tragic disasters. It seems so little that i can say or do but if there's really a god(no offence, really), please halt everything soon. This is my prayer to you.

Just a normal girl. Who hates herself.

2011-03-02T05:20:00.004+08:00

Another emotional breakdown today. I wish could untangle from the past as well. I thought I did but the heart doesn't lie. Yes I'm moving on, but will everybody realize and understand the torment I have to be put through? Again? And many more to come? Everyone has their problems, or even happy occasions. Really don't know who to talk to, who to pour out to. In case I add on to their problems, or become a wet blanket. Or I don't even know whether to be truthful or not. With my own feelings. Recently I'm having this weird feelings that surge up when I'm with a certain someone. The feelings I thought I'd never feel again, at least not anytime soon. But just as I said, " happy n confused, life of spoon-forever happening and undergoing ". I don't wanna experience anymore crap I shouldn't be taking. Same shit, different day. Please just let me feel like I have a purpose in life. I wish I was pretty/skinny. At least I have something to be happy about. Haha. 已经开始胡言乱语了。但是又有谁会发现冥冥中，透露着最想被发现的讯息？想看海了。。强大的巨浪，像是脉搏在跳动。呼吸的瞬间，仿佛还活着。。

2011-02-25T17:59:00.003+08:00

Trying my best to polish off my photos!
Tadaa, first will be photos from the Skyparkians Hotel Stay!

It was a very nerve-wrecking thing to bathe cuz there were 2 bathroom doors,
WITH NO LOCKS. And there were like 20+ of us!
Thats not all. The shower place had GLASS DOORS.
Lol! It was a total honeymoon kind of room so it was embarassing for everyone :X
We had to shout at least 3 times to everyone: EH IM SHOWERING AH!
to make sure no one would barge in the bathroom suddenly.
hahaha! Something worth remembering ;)

Super high tech coffee machine!

Roaming the area at around 4-5am, napped for an hr before heading the pool for breakfast! Haha, ended up sleeping on the pool deck chairs.
Will upload the other photos once i get hold of them!

First try at baking!
Although this was really easy to make, i put in my sleeping time and heart into it!
Glad to see those happy faces when people received my chocolates ^^

February is coming to an end soon.
In need of drive,motivation and direction.
March? Will you be better? :)

Tumblr-ing on my blog. Tskkkkk.

2011-02-17T00:28:00.004+08:00

I know. I really do.

And i also do know that ive got 253photos unposted, unblogged, for february that is.
And that i received my first proper valentine present today :X
Flowers, Chocolate & Bear.
However,i'm more stressed then just being plain happy.
When can i stop worrying so much? And just go with the flow and embrace the things and people as they come?
Sigh... Shall sing Que Sera Sera to sleep tonight..

It's time.

2011-02-12T00:02:00.003+08:00

11th feb 2011. I repackaged my heart and sent it away. Hopefully by the time it's being received, I would have long forsaken everything. It's a brand new start! I wouldn't be here if it wasn't for all of you. Sorry if I was a huge disappointment the past 3yrs. Thank you, from the pit bottom of my heart to everyone that has been a darling to me. Being there, lending a listening ear, offering the best advices and giving me a hug when I needed it the most. Whatever we had, or what we will never have, I don't have the courage to chase on anymore. Before my wounds get so deep it's incurable, before our decisions are irreversible, before I get another chance to look back, I acted upon it first. Although it kills me to think that I never had a chance to say that you're mine, in this brand new year, I'd rather be loveless. Jal ga, nae sarang. Bogo shipul ye yo.

2011-02-08T02:40:00.002+08:00

Moi ishh back. Pardon the weird languages. Been mixing with a weird crowd haha. Sigh. So many things, too little time. Although I always tell myself to stop the constant chase for the things we think we need. Because all we really need is time to breathe. Had a good Cny I'll say! Though it'd never be the same as what happened during my younger days, I'd give anything in exchange to be back again. Back home. Thank you Meiwen for the sweet Cny e-card! Hope all your dilemmas unfold themselves soon. Gonna be a packed week! Work work work & MBS hotel stay with colleagues the next few days. Hope it'll be good! Had enough of all the drama going around for 2mths already. Praying for more smooth-sailing days ahead. Adios! I'll be updating this space sooooon (:

Bonjour.

2011-01-28T08:34:00.002+08:00

Here I am, sitting in a bus I thought would lead me to my destination. But it did not stop. Instead it headed straight for the expressway. I can't put them to words, the elation and anticipation that curled my lips into a smile. I smiled, for not knowing the road ahead, for the adventure it'll bring. I've long ceased to care about being late for work. Ever since 2mths ago I've ceased to enjoy the peacefulness of a long bus ride. The ability to sit there, listening to your favorite tunes, forgo-ing everything that has been on your mind all these while. On this morning, I'm a happy girl. Everyday should be a new adventure(:

Tasty days.

2011-01-24T19:13:00.003+08:00

As always, food is the fuel of life for me.
Yum yums coming your way!

Had MOF at Bugis with my sis and cousin sometime ago and you can see the disappointment on my sis's face. Every dish was horrible!
Bad bad bad. Never going there again!

Hot Tomato at Somerset313 with Von n Min after work one afternoon.
The set lunches pricing were a steal and the food were good!
Lunch anyone? (:

Tonkichi at Takashimaya with Khloe and her mum.
The small bowl of sesame is served before your meal and to be grinded!
Its a wonder how such a simple ingredient can give off a heavenly scent.
Enjoyed myself thoroughly the whole meal :D

Met Ziwei for Just Acia & Starbucks and he bought me a lovely clutch as my bday prezzie! Thank you ZHENG GANG & ZIWEI<3

Finally met my Xuan and Zuzu for a girly movie date n dinner!
Burlesque, was fantastic! The glitz and glamour brings you to a different era from where we are living now.
We missed Swensen's ice-cream this time though, lets make it up next time k?(:

Hope i'll have more time to go out, take more photos, and meet up more often with the rest of you! 2011 AZA AZA!

Dubidubidu....

2011-01-20T01:12:00.004+08:00

I kept reminding myself to blog on the 19th. The 19th day of being 19. Unfortunately I only remembered this silly thing now, but glad too I had a great day today, despite all the crap throughout this wk. It's hard to digest that it has only been a wk since everything. All the thoughts conjured from my mind is limitless. I wonder if I'll ever find another who can handle my fickle-mindedness. One min I'm happy as a bird the other I'll be plunged in sadness and next thing you know I'll be jumping around again. But no one is okay. Some people are just better at hiding it. Caught burlesque with my baby girls, swensens and instax frenzy. Couldn't stop myself to stop by somewhere too.. Which I really shouldn't have... Fantastic movie btw. Every girl should catch it and feel like a girl again. Work's getting better. I guess it'll have to. It's the tricks that are playing on our minds that we should control. Once you try to tame it, it's not too bad.. OKAY WHATEVER I'm still as depressed but a little less I'll say. I'll just keep eating the lemons n save my skin a lil. Time to revamp this space too. Gdnight world. Gdnight you.

Our words, our silence.

2011-01-12T23:10:00.004+08:00

It's a wonder how one can bruise so easily. So easily.. That people think its just a momentarily thing. A thing that'll go away in no time, a thing that is far too frequent to be bothered with, a thing that's just erupted again, from the deep abyss of one's soul. As I'm typing this im encountering the third 11.11 of my wk. All coincidental. I tried to stop myself from wishing for the same thing but before I could, the heart took over. I'm trying to keep the world at a distance now, and it's not easy. I keep coming back to check on things I shouldn't even be bothering. I'm trying because it's better off being alone. Nobody can hurt you. You keep yourself sane and it's all you need to do. Sometimes the beauty in this world makes me cave in but I know I have to fish myself out again. I want to tell the world how exhausted I am, even when I'm sleeping. And I wake up everyday feeling so desperate to do anything just to feel different. I'm writing to keep myself alive. Happiness.. Never fucking wished so badly it came in pills. Don't bother looking for me. I'm not that important anyway. My prescence is probably not even needed in everyone's life. Yes, every one of you.

Low fat yoghurt with mixed berries.

2011-01-06T22:22:00.003+08:00

Cant think of an appropriate title, so i typed in what's in front of me, hahaha.
It's already the 6th day of 2011!
Thought i should post up the past events first :)
Mainly from work.

Unnie, i know you might not see this but im really thankful and sorry that you chose this job just because of me. You could have chosen the frontdesk job, and need not suffer from all the sun, the rain, the tan, the hardwork.
I hope you find a new job soon! Pali Pali!
Thanks for the one month tgt at work :)

My "normal" servings at work.
Due to the only one meal per day, you just cant help but choosing everything you see on your plate!

Our favourite "lifesaver"!
Just gotta grab a couple of these to endure you through the cold nights!

Day/Night.

Stupid irritating bitch.
DONT THINK YOU CAN GET AWAY WITH A PAIR OF HELLO KITTY CHOPSTICKS & PINK SCISSORS!
GET ME MY BDAY PRESENT HOR LUB YOU :>

You got me feeling so fly like a G6..

Lotsa things to do the next few days.
Let's go!

1/1/2011

2011-01-01T20:54:00.004+08:00

Happy 2011 Everybody! :)

Firstly, i wanna express some heartfelt thanks for last night.

Alayna, the crazy girl who flew all the way back from Melbourne

to give me the surprise.

Thanks for the efforts with the rest of the gang to make this possible!

And yes, pls rmb my expression, my screams and tears for life! x

Jess, Jasmine, Yvonne, Chew Shih, Desmond, Fany,Jason, Kevin, Nicholas,

I'm not too sure about the rest but nvm! and thank you all SO MUCH for the gift.

You guys fulfilled my first wish for 2011!

THANK YOU XIE XIE KAMSA-AMIDA ILUVYOU.

And all the other games n prizes for the night! x

Dearest Cactus, the place filled with my most favourite people on earth.

It's been 3 years. Thank q thank q thank q for all the unforgettable memories,

bday celebrations, sinful suppers, heartaches, and above all, love.

Love from all the lovely people who are still in this together, or has left.

Every bit n piece, i'll remember it for life. xxx

2010 definitely wasn't a simple journey but it would have been worst if

i didnt have you guys.

The ones who are reading this, n those who aren't.

No matter where we are or what we're doing, please stay true to yourself.

Only then you can give the best to the ones you love, and receive blessings in return.

Lots of love,

Spoon; Shi Pinn.

HAPPY BLESSED BIRTHDAY BABE! :D

2011-01-01T06:47:00.004+08:00

**after sometime of not 'hacking' your a/c, I am back!!! :D

BABE!!!

HAPPY BLESSED 16++++TH BIRTHDAY TO YOU!

I just want to thank you for all that you are to me from the very first day!

*gosh the very cui looking us on the first day of school! hahaha*

to the cam whoring in class,

and outta class...

You were my east-to-school traveling buddy at first.
You are the one who understands me inside out.
You are the one who sometimes know me better than myself.
You are the one who asked me to lie on your shoulder in the
train so that I will not play the helicopter game.
You are the one who knows just how to cheer me up when I am down.
You are the one who is there to listen and understand me when I start to share with you.

On this first day of 2011, I would really really like to say a big thank you, babe! For loving me just the way I am. Altho we may be busy with attachments and studies, I wanna assure you that I am always here for you, to share both your sorrows and your joy in the many many years ahead!

No matter what happens, babe, i will always be proud of you! YOU GO GIRL! AJA HWAITING! :)

Lastly, HAVE LOTSA FUN babe! For you totally deserve it. :D May 2011 be our greatest year, yet! :)

XOXO ;)

Thoughts.

2010-12-28T23:13:00.003+08:00

Hey lovelies!
Hope your christmases went well :)
Next up is new year countdown!
Only a few more days left being 18..
Honestly?
I think im gonna miss that special number.
And i have far too many regrets.

But i do have a couple of things in mind for the upcoming year!
For now that is :)

Own a polariod/instax!

Bake rainbow cupcakes for special ones<3

Get more n more n more pretty frocks!

Whip up a proper breakfast.

Night cycling!

Gee i cant wait to fulfil them all,
since ive pretty much failed my 2010 wishes :$

And to all the lovely people who gave me diaries when i lost mine,
thank you all sooooooo much :))
I have like 7 diaries now!
Whose should i use? hahahah!
Gam xia gam xia all of you, really.

Please let these last few days be good.
On the other hand,

hey you... Look.

2010-12-23T23:32:00.002+08:00

This will always be relevant. Always.

I guess it's life. And it's the same for everyone.
Just who goes through these a lil more then others.
Maybe a lot more.
Ha.

Up!

2010-12-19T20:21:00.002+08:00

Had lunch at NYNY with yvonne and jasmine before work.
These 2 crazy girls have been yakking about the Laksa Pasta since ages ago!
Unfortunately, it was merely a weak replica of the real stuff.
Still, times spent are definitely precious! :)

Hello kitty shirt+hello kitty film=<3
hehe!
Instax ah instax. When will i have you under my arms?

And here's my mini bakery!
Cakes,cookies,tea,bread.. All my love!
Recently ive been driving Yvonne crazy with my craze.
"okie 15mins later my blueberry muffins will be done"
"oh shit my cake spoil liao"
"hmm 4hrs later i should be off from work.. can cook this!"
^.^

Lastly, ending off with some yumyum! a.k.a EYE CANDY.

Plzxz watch "Sungkyungkwan Scandal" if you havent!
Or i can loan you mine! hahahahaha.

Trying to keep being positive everyday,
but the ugly tan lines dont lie.
i hate it i hate it i hate it.
Why dont anyone understand? Sigh.
Whatever. Morning shifts up again, no time for sighs.

I'll try to make this week as magnificient as this. TAADAAAAA~~

Sigh..

2010-12-15T00:52:00.003+08:00

Finally slept for more then 5hrs today.
Spent/NUA the whole off day at home, watching dramas, eating non-stop
and exploring my iphoney. Wanted to head out with my cousin but the weather was too dreamy. Had to stay at home to enjoy it :)

Seriously... the job is getting on my nerves.
I did not take the job to pick up towels(even in the rain),
take photos for guests, pick up litter, tidy the pool facilities.
I've been sick for 2wks straight and i've yet to recover.

Oh well, only one way to cheer myself up!

XDD

Birthday surprise for Jasmine ah fei 2months ago!
haha. My updates are horrible.
Gonna charge myself for tomorrow, Wan an!

2010-12-10T22:50:00.002+08:00

Been super busy.
Shall not rant about my job here but instead, the people there have been good(so far), hope it lasts cuz most probably i'd have to stay there for 6months.
Maybe by that time i'll already look like a malay girl, no offence, hahahaha.

Too many events to blog about, way behind again.
I shall post things that make me happy!

Fallen deeply in love with this color lately.
Omigod!If only i could find donuts in those color cream YUMYUMMS.

To those whom i've celebrated with/greeted, hope you guys had a blast!
To those whose birthdays are on the way..
Chin up! It's gonna be good, one way or the other :)

Have a great weekend lovelies!

Moving on.

2010-12-03T20:27:00.002+08:00

As time ticks by, i realised i've ceased to enjoy taking shots of myself.
It's always someone else who whips out their phone/camera and go:
"Hey lets take a peekture!!"
I'm happy to. Just that self shots?
I'm not good enough.

Craze craze craze.
A2(Oolong Tea)+Extra Milk+Black Pearl=BEST.

'

KBOX at *Scape with Yvonne sometime ago and the room was fantastic!
Every room is different but with the comfy sofas you can literally lie on them,
its amazing! Seriously. hahahah!

Just some random shots i sneaked at MBS.
It was during orientation so i couldnt do it like a tourist.
And we're not allowed phones during work too.
There's gonna be a ice skating rink soon!
Purrrrrfect dating place ^^
And the courageous window cleaner.
57lvls ya know! No joke.

As always. If im considered shy, this human being here is... dont know what.
HAHAHHAHAAHHA!
I'm gonna give it my best shot girl.
I always do. But its sad people fail to see it.
Whatever decision i make, i'll let you know.

Thanks for the "last" supper!
2years is not a short time.
You guys will ALWAYS, always be a part of me.
I'll haunt you guys in FB, Msges and MSN so you wont even notice im gone!
hahahha. Everything has an end. I guess this is it!

It's a little late but,

Bless you all.

Singing here we go again..

2010-11-27T16:36:00.002+08:00

Blogging from the flea market!
It's a slow saturday afternoon..
Got myself 2 dresses and i cant wait to wear them!
Thankq Yvonne and Jasmine ^^

Since fatball has never watched a 3D movie,
i decided to bring both my brothers to watch Megamind!

Good at spending my money only.. HAHAHAHA!

CHRISTMASSSSS!

Ending off with a you-know-who pose!
Dang i look fat.
Miss you girls! (L)

2010-11-25T02:58:00.002+08:00

Today, life's been fair to me. My favourite weather, good hair day, laptop(watching U-kiss Vampire OMG I'M FREAKIN ADDICTED TO IT)+kinder bueno+gong cha by lovely ppl at the Oc flea! Mbs called and i'm gonna start work next Monday, a wk earlier den expected. But i'm ready to leave. Though latest news is that the job scope is gonna be tough and crappy, i'm not really intimidated, yet. What have i got to lose? Nothing to my name.. Probably my fatsss. Gotta start curbing my sudden recover of appetite. Which is supposed to be.. Good news? :) My heart's at peace now, it's all that matters. Don't ever look back, don't ever look back. Time check 3.04. Damn.. Spoony tham whatcha gonna do if you gonna get all the 6.00am shifts??! Major headache.. Nitezzz.

2 Days with Khloe!

2010-11-23T21:01:00.002+08:00

Skipping all the flea details,
i had 2 lovely days with khloe, her sis and her niece, Kimi! :D

At the end of 2 tiring days, Khloe treated us, together with William
a lovely dinner at Marche!
I was happily snapping photos away till someone said i'm not allowed to do so.
Nevertheless, here they are!

We were so full we ended up only sharing a cup of ice cream for dessert.
Lol!

Xmas is nearing..
Wonder what it holds for me?

Fueled up.

2010-11-14T00:33:00.003+08:00

This space needs some LIFE.
Some trace of me in it.
To be more definite, my hands and fingers ;D

Had a lovely dinner at Ashton's with Nadia after i officially graduated!
Le sigh. This journey though, has been short,
came with responsibilities and hopes i never dared dreamed about.
I'm glad and happy with where i am now and yes, to be straightforward,
I'll be starting a new job at Marina Bay Sands Skypark in Dec!
Wish me luck, i'll be needing loads ;)

Had my first try at Gong Cha~
Very refreshing indeed. For a non-tea lover like me.
2 thumbs up!
Sorry koi fans but this is way better.

Cute right :))

These are the only items i managed to buy in JB.
5 girls, 1hr plus all spent in Etude House.
Bill? RM600+.
HAHAHAHA, MADNESS.
But it's freaking ^%@$@#&%$* cheap!

And as always, ZA's special edition at the end of the year!
$33.50. Mad cheap again.
It's been years since i used powder but im afraid the glittery case
and the different freebies caught my attention.
Should i stock up 2 more boxes? hehehehehe.

Will keep chanting this to myself everyday.
It will be it will be it will be.
Gdnight lovelies :)

2010-11-13T01:44:00.003+08:00

I've been running. Hiding. Dodging.
But all i need is .........
~~A reason to run back to you.~~
To keep running ahead and never look back.

-12.32am
141110

Diamonds are forever.

2010-11-10T01:33:00.004+08:00

I still remember vividly all the things that happened in Genting with Cactus last year. Every smile, every step, every laughter, every bit of memory. This year, with a whole new different batch of people, i don't know what memories we'll create but i hope i don't bring myself down more den i already am now. Everybody's hyped up and too excited to sleep. It's such a disappointment i'm not feeling it. I am! But other emotions are overlapping it. One thing very true i'm feeling right now? Nobody cares if you're sad, so you might as well be happy. Let me feel sorry for myself tonight. I'll disguise myself beautifully tomorrow morning. *P/S: Had another fantastically elastic trip, this time to jb. I guess it's in my nature to not able to stay mad/disappointed/unfeeling towards friends. Is it a good trait? Or just shows how weak i am? Will need to collate the photos from 5different people, madness! Haha. Busy busy this whole wk. Stay healthy peeps! Luv.

My answer.

2010-11-04T19:16:00.002+08:00

I'm not selfless enough to say no, cause i know we're better together.

Bye October.

2010-11-02T16:30:00.003+08:00

So!
October has been a total flop.
If you just take into account what matters most.

Of course, the best people make it up for them.
80%? Haha!

What we usually do in class, presenting ideas and answers on flip charts.
Though i always felt guilty for destroying the trees, somehow, dont you just love writing on big sheets of paper with markers!?

And so.. Pretty much sums up our last day of school!
All these months were wonderful.
Because we were a really small class, we bonded really quickly
and whichever groups we were in, we could make things work.
Happy Graduation~~

Min's bday surprise!
Hope you're happy girl!
Tomorrow will be always be better :)

Learn to grab what you want.

Nae sarang, bi.

2010-10-27T01:36:00.003+08:00

I can't explain my love for the rain. The tranquility it brings, the scent it gives off. I remember in my old room, my bed was just beside the window. Every night it rained, i'd sit up and stare into space. I would quickly fall back to bed pretending to be asleep when i hear my mum coming in to shut the windows, only to wake up again to open them up, and let the rain splatter on my face while i doze off to sleep, with a contented smile. I really miss that. But now my hopes to feel that again have been dashed by the big drawers against the window in my current room. So here i am, leaning on my drawers, feeling the wind and drizzles on my face, awaiting the start of a beautiful night. I know it'll be splendid :)

2010-10-25T23:29:00.005+08:00

"There's a new gal to replace spoony. After 2yrs. 16too! Same age you came into Cactus. " Oh gawd. I thought nothing could be worse then my flu and sore throat now. I thought wrong. This is all so wrong. I think i'm going to cry.

Edit: I think you guys have gotten the wrong idea, esp YOU, sista. Im not sad that "there's a new gal to replace spoony". It was meant as a light hearted joke from my friend. It's just that.. 2yrs have just passed like that. Im 18 now. Soon to be 19.
I not shy to admit that i've dedicated so much in this what seems to be just a little store. Stories were written and memories created. The good and bad, we've been through it all. I'm exactly where i was 1year ago.. not knowing the correct path to head, not admitting to all the excuses i've been making. The one and only person i can't kid is myself. It's time.

oh oh oh oh~~~

2010-10-19T21:19:00.002+08:00

Too many good images floating around in my com.
Too many events/outings/meet-ups havent been updated, haha.
Maybe i should start taking photos next time onwards! ^^

Cakes overload!!!!!
Im literally feasting with my eyes now.
When will i ever have a rainbow cake? :[

Junsi, these 2 are for you! XD

Fascinated by such images lately.
Pretty ain't they? :)

GIF and PHOTO REPRESENTING MY LAST 2WKS:

Hell yes.
Tata.

I can't let you go.

2010-10-17T02:49:00.005+08:00

Tonight i wasted my tears for a friendship. I cried not for what the other party has done, but for what i've not done or said over the years. I hate being me. I don't point out certain things doesn't mean i see eye to eye on your actions. I don't throw a temper doesn't mean i don't get angry. I don't say things out doesn't mean i'm okay with everything. It's because i love you, that's why i'm willing to accept you fully as you are. But over the years, i've received nothing but disappointment. As others left i stood by, hoping one day you'll see the light. But no. You're still the princess and i'm still the weakling. What's worse, as i'm typing this, i'm still igniting some hope towards this friendship, secretly. JYJ showcase ended just like that. And me, at work struggling like a fool, missed it without even realising it. And i call myself a fan. Joke.

2010-10-16T02:09:00.003+08:00

You still have the ability to mess up every living cell and atom in me. I swear, you do. This is the only place i can bring myself to reply you- Goodnight.

2010-10-12T11:49:00.003+08:00

Wooo. Now still in lounge waiting for my other classmates who got their oral assessment pushed back.
Gonna head for kbox! Promotion ending on the 17th guys! Haha, auntie spoony again.
Shall post some photos! :)

I ATE A PIGEON!!!! >.<

Haha! So this is what happens when i'm bored at Flea Market.
Plus wifi,nintendo ds, itouch, speakers blasting kpop (Y)

I like this korean cartoon!
And again, hope you had a great 18th, Junsi! :D

My brother's simple 17th too.
You can see how simple it is when he's just wearing home clothes,haha.

MEIWEN! See, this is what im talking about.
First time i didnt finish my cake. Sour raspberry cake, eww.

New version of rabbit recreated by fatball himself.

Okie byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee ^.^

10.10.10

2010-10-11T01:35:00.002+08:00

Awesome date, needa pen down something. Anything. I just read from my friend's fb that we've only got 2more yrs to witness a date like this. Cuz you won't be able to have 13.13.13. Simple common sense but hit me hard. Hope the lucky birthday girl is having fun in penang right now. I don't even know when am i gonna be back. Family's already making plans and once again i'm out of the picture :( Been feeling extremely sick this whole week but only could hide it in. Finally, tmr's gonna be a fresh new start. Huat ah! 今天，我终于碰到妮妮了。。你还是你。但，我还能当小新吗？

Acting is everyone's lifetime job.

2010-10-10T02:38:00.003+08:00

Seems like everyone has found their way out, leaving me alone in this deep abyss. I think this is the way life works. You heal and save others. You sink in a lil bit more after every rescue operation. Because you realise all that you've preached, no longer has effect on yourself. Everything is seriously demoralizing. I can only pass my days creeping at kids. Thats the only thing that puts an instant smile on my lips and heart effortlessly. I'm beyond repair. The ends of the clock's hands is piercing my heart, it's making me cry. Why did you make me like this? Why did you make everything irreversible?

Self healing therapy.

2010-10-08T21:18:00.004+08:00

I'm this easy.
If only you could see.
If only ANYONE could.

我总是不坚决，才会在爱里面绕圈圈。

2010-10-07T00:38:00.005+08:00

Few nights ago i chanced upon someone important in my life. We merely exchanged a few sentences everytime we bump into each other on the streets, our texts were always short, and our attempts to meet always fail. The reason he still is, and is the only one who is able to give me butterflies in the stomach, is unexplainable. After so many years.. our story got so twisted i don't even know which is the right version anymore. But what really mattered to me that night was it suddenly hit me that up till now, my life have always been like this. Nothing, nothing but regrets. Too scared to hold on to hope, too insecured about myself, too stupid to not fight for my own happiness. I'm tired of living this way. I know a lot of people feel that i'm melodramatic, pessimistic and impossible. But i'd rather be all that, then to be consumed in my own thoughts... On the other hand, welcome back, my summer's desire.

Boohoooo

2010-10-02T02:09:00.003+08:00

Let me find some words to sum up this *inserts high pitched voice* lovely first day of the month! Embarrassing. Embarrassing and erm.. Embarrassing. I'm amazed at the amount of drama my life has. It can beat our local(not forgetting to mention crappy) dramas hands down anytime. Le sigh. My dongwoon look-alike will never be part of my life from today onwards. Fantasy shattered T.T oh but on a brighter note? My sis says he looks nowhere near dongwoon. Hahahaha!! ... Okay i can't even convince myself to feel better. Neh neh pok. Abracadabra~~ Please let something wonderful befall on me at the oc flea market tomorrow.

opeidhasgdyrntaieow ( WHATEVER )

2010-09-30T22:52:00.002+08:00

This, is gonna be a chap-ba-lang post.
And im really tempted to get myself a twitter,
but i know it'll be shut down within 2months.
3months max. So.. yea.
Tell me about fickle-mindedness.

(photo from tony moly fb)

Jang Jang! New korean cosmetic store launched in Marina Square.
Kim Hyun Joong is the ambasssador of this brand but apparently
his contract is going to end. Narsha and Soong joong ki will be taking over!
Prices are pretty okay so you guys should drop by and have a look.
(esp EVE AND BINN ahh~~ hahahaha)

Tried on their colors ahahahah.
Imagine i go down every day on days i work at MS.
HAHAHAHHAAH. Auntie max.

Headed to City Square mall for the first time
with dowager and fatball on sunday.
Though it seems irrational, but only on times like this,
my mum puts me in her eye. (pls translate it to chinese)

Sadly, there isnt anything to offer in the mall at all.
It's all empty and hollow.. and boring.
Switched to plaza sing instead and i instantly got
myself shoes and... these.

You really wont wanna know the price of all these.
3 digits. And god knows what came over my mum to let me buy all these.
The products just snowballed due to the eloquent staff and our
desire to become a member/get freebie/get voucher. HAHAHAHA.

A pretty swell experience i'll say and i'm keeping
my fingers crossed for results.
My mum just told me minutes ago my condition seemed to worsen.
CRAP.

To my surprise i found all these polka dots stuff in my bag.
People who dont know might think i have a fetish for polka dots!
But the best part is all these except the earrings were gifts! HAHAHHAHA!
Thanks lovelies :)

Thought of the week:

Okay Dongwoon look-alike,
I'm gonna try to speak to you tomorrow.
GAMBATTEH NEH!

2010-09-26T02:45:00.002+08:00

I wonder if anyone else besides meiwen caught a glimpse of the deleted post, and remembers what it was about. I seriously regretted it. But like lost time, it can never be retrieved back. We all believe in second chances but i gave it three tries. I guess last night marked game over for my immature hangover. But what irks me most was that, throughout the whole night i was only constantly reminded of someone i know who would never treat me like that, not in a million years. I miss you.

BANANAS.

2010-09-24T02:55:00.002+08:00

Okay im going mad now but i can still go to my stash of secret gif and upload it for you guys to see.
A-M-A-Z-I-N-G.
Nah, its solely for the benefit of myself actually.
I need that dose of laughter like right now.
DEAR FRIDAY CAN YOU NOT COME SO SOON?
I HAVENT DONE MY ASSSIGNMENTS URGHHHHHHH.

Shinee, i choose you!

Seriously. I need to grow up.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!!!

Maybe next time. Adios.

S.o.s

2010-09-22T03:21:00.003+08:00

Everytime i ignite some hopes, i end up with nothing but a crumbled self, haywired mind and tearstrickened face. I don't know if God(if there is one, no offence) is testing, playing or joking with me. I'm running out of words to say. About both of them, what's worth and what's not, i'm not sure anymore. I'm more then just tired. I don't know who or what i am anymore. A girl, a spoon, a joke or a duck. Okay i'm not so sure about the duck. Don't worry about me and go away. I'll disappear with no strings attached. Cuz love, love is over tonight.

You make me wanna lala.

2010-09-21T00:56:00.003+08:00

Blogging on the com makes me seem like a drug addict.
I keep coming back for more.
Pictures, make me whole.

I'm literally dying to get my hands on one of them.
Why they do this to me?
Why so many designs?
What happens if they come up with something better this year?
I like the white one cuz it has apples.
I like the orange one but its not pink!
OMFGGG SOMEONE SAVE ME.

Bliss.

2010-09-21T00:02:00.002+08:00

Attended my 干爹's daughter wedding on 9thSep at Marriott Hotel.
I know the way you read "my 干爹's daughter" , its weird.
Cuz it is.

Cute guy posing for me, i think.

Everything was so dreamy i felt i could set up a tent and live there.

Then suddenly the lights went off the spotlights kept flashing.
Waiters and waitresses coming out as though in a fashion show.
i seriously LOL though everything was so serious!

Poor guy still serving though nobody else is at their seats and
is being ignored :(

I realised at the end(pathetically) that i should have taken photos
with my 干爹 and 干妈 and the newly wed couple before the dinner started.
I didnt even take a photo of myself.

Recently i've been doing so many things alone.
Honestly, it sucks. Big time.

Kacang puteh. Ice kacang. Rojak. Lor bak. Nasi lemak.

2010-09-20T01:18:00.005+08:00

I think my thoughts have ceased to make sense to the human mind/eye. If i could i'd type and type all day long in this nest of mine, instead of showing you what bizzare mooncake i had, where i set my foot on, and my stupid fugly faces. Making no sense(to you peeps) cuz my thoughts are like wordless songs. I don't even dare to pin any hopes that i'll ever find anyone who'd decipher them. I really wish i was born someone else. In another dimension. With character traits the entire opposite of what i own now. 1.28am. I feel like a trainwreck. Tired of waiting, for you both. Love? Lust?

知足。

2010-09-17T02:35:00.002+08:00

Oh man i feel good tonight! Haven't been laughing for real for some time now. Let's say 2months. I think it all started with that stupid call in programme on Fm100.3 i randomly switched to on the bus just now. Well as you know my phone is no better den an empty phone now, i listened to the radio and i laughed myself silly on the whole journey back. But of cuz many thanks to the ppl in my life right now.. Shit getting sentimental. Cannot, I am in hyper mode tonight! Hehehe. Hope it lasts! And oops, though i know i shouldn't, but i'm really looking forward to tomorrow night:) Spoony fighting!

Selamat Hari Raya~~

2010-09-12T01:40:00.005+08:00

Im attempting to type this post before i die from too much laughter.
Thanks to MEIWEN.
You go girl! :D

So! I went out with my family yesterday.
Woaaaaa. Slept till 3pm.
Most contented rest since $#%^&*#?! ago.
No school. No work.
Imma happy girl ^.^

只有的看，没得吃 :(
Wayyyyyyyy too many stalls and people!
And im all surrounded by Taiwan people.
I guess all the ppl who come here to work/study
finally grab the chance to enjoy their hometown food,
CHIONGGG AHHHHH!!

One day i will conquer you!! (Y)

The crowd at Central was crazy.
We switched from 3 japanese restaurants to 1 korean restaurant
and ended up at BBQ Chicken. LOL.

No, NOT ME.

Okie i'll conquer you at night (Y)

I adore Clarke Quay. So much.
Then again, who doesn't? :)

P/S: Something for the night~~

Laugh dao peng! xD

2010-09-08T03:41:00.000+08:00

After one year of owning my phone, i finally learned how dl apps,themes and games from ovi store. I was so happy. I finally found something else that could keep me occupied at night.Within a sec, when i tried to access to my songs, *poof* my phone became a new phone instantly. But this time only worse, i don't have any backup. Photos..songs.. I have none now. But if you think this is the joke tonight, you thought wrong. No mere words can explain what i had to endure this evening. My legs turned jelly. My tears forced back. I don't know how long i can still do this. I really wanted to keep the memories clean. But now they're all haunted. I don't blame anyone. I only blame myself.. For being a joke.

3rd sep. 3rd sep. 3rd sep. 2010.

2010-09-04T03:38:00.004+08:00

Gee. What can i say? There's something about the air lingering in the night. And i'm still foolishly waiting for dawn to break. Hmmm. I seriously need to get myself a twitter or something. I'm about to go mad. But you know what? The best people are:) Kthxbai.

This too shall pass.

2010-09-03T00:35:00.003+08:00

I don't regret. And never will.
Goodbye August. Goodbye to everything that i knew. I'm already gone. Either i come back stronger, or i might not come back at all.

Voyage de La Vie!

2010-09-02T23:53:00.002+08:00

Finally, back to update and what not.
Went to this amazing show twice and i know, im a lucky girl.
Really :)

Thanks to Chewyan, i got to see Jonathan Leong in flesh and blood~
Lotsa things happened but i guess i'll just leave it in my memory!

First visit with chewyan and chewshih:
Like a total sua gu. Cuz i reached darn early,
so i walked around the whole of RWS, on my own.

The popcorn, is to DIE for.
Seriously. And lucky for us, a new outlet is to be
opened at citylink to Marina Square! \^.^/
I simply cant think anyone would be able to resist the aroma.

Darn. I just realised the human pictures are in another com.
Upload them next time :)

Second visit with Khloe,William,Chongshun:

Quick dinner at RamenPlay and freak!!
I want my long hair back :'(

Chongshun: "we like at malaysia bus customs".
HAHAHAHAH! Seriously. if you guys take the free shuttle bus,
nothing fits better den this.

Strawberryshortcake,squirrel and bowly,
it was really fun though it was a short night!
These few mths you guys gave me a lot of laughters.
I treasure this more den you think ;)

I simply can't explain how in love i am with the
city lights, cool breeze, and the sounds of nature in the night.

warwick avenue.

2010-08-31T03:17:00.004+08:00

This morning, i met this boy who was munching on a bag of chips. Upper deck, left aisle, one seat before my favourite's. I stared at his back view for a long time before he had to hop off the bus. He took out his iphone at least 2times, to look at me with his mirror-ed screen protector. He thought i didn't knew, or maybe he did. It was then i realised, in the first time in 3years of travelling alone on bus14, i finally met a boy who could appreciate eating on board like i do. For the first time in 3yrs, i didnt feel alone. In this big world, we're all bound to bump into a few people of your desire. It might take a long while for each scar to heal but its okay. Grief has a timetable of its own and it's entitled differently to everyone. *** Can someone nominate me for best actress award for tonight? Or better still, forget about nominating. Just give me the award already.

2010-08-28T02:53:00.003+08:00

Most of the time i don't tell others what i really feel & think,is not cuz i don't trust them, or don't know what to say. It's cuz i fear i can't find the right words to make them understand. So at least i'll be 99% truthful in this space. Today i realised why nobody really thinks i'm living in the doldrums daily. I give away my smiles and laughters often too easily. I tend to collect all the pain and only let it get to me when night falls. But, i should be thankful to the ones who are making me do so. Without them i'd never be myself again. Had a great night with strawberryshortcake, bowly and squirrel. Doubt i'm gonna get any sleep tonight. I'm gonna stare long and hard outside my window, listen to the rhythm of the raindrops, feel the wind on my bare face, and smell the serenity it brings.. One thing i'm sure of- i'm still living:)

Oktto ka jor.....

2010-08-25T15:40:00.006+08:00

Please dont tell me its a sign.
I'm done and over with. I just want to hold on to the very least i have left.

Please dont tell me it's okay and i can start afresh.
Some things can NEVER be replaced.

Please dont tell me those words that i know.
Cuz i come to you not for comfort.

Though i dont know why i do,
I'll be okay. Just not today,
or anytime soon for that matter. Am going to block everything and everyone out.

I guess im bound to lose everything that leads me
back to you.

Unforgettable.

2010-08-24T01:42:00.005+08:00

I swear i've never felt this happy in 3years.
Ever since ended secondary sch, i've never got enough time for
forums and fan pages. I'm serious.
I like this in front of my com:

I've got a HELL LOTTA Gifs waiting to be showcased but tonight,
i'll start with my DBSK first ^.^

THIS IS HOW MUCH I LOVE THEM. hahahaha! Even the unglams!

I nearly dieddddddddddddddddd. *nose bleeding*

And here's something for you my meiwen!!
(pls dont vomit blood)
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HAHAHAHHAHAH this is embarrassing!
Sorry if i killed the sign but, this is for you girl! :D
And my latest blog song is making me insane lately..
Havent been so addicted to a song since forever and it makes me
smile when i listen to it!
Meiwen and Jas babe- this one's for you two!
Hope you two can feel the happy-ness too ^^
omg i sound chirpy tonight hehehehe.
Gdnight all!

Mixed feelings.

2010-08-21T23:34:00.007+08:00

Hi peeps!
Lotsa pictures to share lately.
Today's theme shall be (mostly)pink and pretty stuff :D

I WOULD SO DIE FOR THIS PAIR OF LEGS AND SHOES.

Hardcore glitter addict. Too overboard for me?

*AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW~*

Mini fact: These are mashed potatos.
Those commercials that you see on tv?
90% of the time, they use mashed potatos ;)
They can withstand the camera lights while real icecream will melt.
Genius right?

And this cuteeee thingy is mine! :D
Lovingly given by Jess.

This is SO NOT REAL.
No guy would do this for a girl :/

This one's for ALL YOU FLUFFAY FANSSSS AHAHAHHA.

I really enjoy the search for these photos.
Hope you peeps dont mind im like combining
tumblr+blogging together!

P/S: Had a rather lovely night, with someone i'm letting in at a very strange part of my life. 3hrs, is all it takes for me to realise, 这几个月来，我白活了。No more looking back pinn. No more:)

2010-08-20T15:44:00.003+08:00

Do i still?
Look. Here's the irony.
Right after posting the silly stuff,
i feel torn.
I really find it harder and harder to comprehend myself.
Last night,
"i find you unpredictable"
He known me for 1mth plus.
5mins later,
"hard to know you wor"
He known me for.. several years?

I mean, i get this all the time but only
till last night i realised how tough a nut i am to crack.
You may comprehend me, but you can never dechipher me.

Final?

2010-08-20T15:14:00.003+08:00

HOLY MOLY.
I passed. Though we've been all mindfucked and played out by the trainer.
Really, how ugly can this world be.
I noticed my habit of photo blogging all the funny stuff after every exam!
But it really works, instant relief :)
On monday, it'll be a fresh new start!
If i had to name one thing i like about this diploma is that we switch
trainers for EVERY module.
Good, i hate being constant.

Here goes!

Even while posting them im still smiling to myself!
Which one did you like best? :)

You know that i need somebody.

2010-08-20T02:08:00.004+08:00

Feeling so vexed right now. Everyone in class is saying how they expect themselves to receive an NYC(not yet competent, which basically means you FAIL in a nicer way) for this module. I really want to go to up to them and say, Please. Look who's talking. I should be the only one in this class who's gonna bloody fail. This month i seen so many ugly sides of people. Classmates, colleagues, and the people whom i call friends. I really wish i cld delete them away but we all know we can't. I'm not one who's so strong and determined to do so either. I always chuck away the ugly sides i witness but sooner or later, they'll come back. Cuz nothing haunts more then the unsaid. Okay, so i'm messed up right now cuz i'm gonna have the oral assessment tmr and i'm about to piss in ma pants just thinking about how the trainer is gonna nail me down. I really don't wish to repeat this module.. But can only leave it to my pea brain to pull me through.

Lost and found.

2010-08-17T12:53:00.005+08:00

One of the late night suppers that enabled me to pull through the night.

My first fried Mars bars!
Lovingly treated by Gabrielle :))

A not-so-newly opened Jap restaurant in Bedok Inter.
I'd say its an exact replica of Sumo House!

First time in my life my mum bought blueberries.
OKAY. You all must think i sua gu now right?
hahahaha!

Lovingly handmade from Yvonne sometime ago!
Oh-so-sweet right?
Thanks again for the little gift & letter<3

After coming home from a sucky day at school,
thank god there's fatball. Ahahaha.
Saranghae~~

AND WOOOO!
SEE WHAT I FOUND!

At Beast's fansign :)

Okie dokie reports now!
AZA AZA AZA! ^.^v

P/S: oh, MEIWEN! Have you watched this drama before?
The one im playing now.
If you haven't, im quite sure you'll like it.
It's a classic :)

2010-08-17T03:37:00.003+08:00

Another ungodly hour.. Just managed to polish off some minor parts of my reports. I was just telling wen that i haven't stopped for even a second ever since i got back from hk. It's been a month plus full of reports, conflicts,misunderstandings and contradictions. We all know that time stops for no one and i'm trying my very best to keep everything under wraps. It's amazing how fast my moods can change within a few hours and the number of events that could also happen within a few days. It's really getting harder to be myself. I still do, to a minor group, i hope. And to you guys i'll always be appreciative. Even as i pen down these thoughts, i wonder if anyone out there even gives a hoot about them :/ Less is more.. Less is more. Get it to your head spoony tham.

OC Open Doors Weekend Flea

2010-08-16T00:45:00.006+08:00

Finally!
Some photos to show you guys hows its like :)

This week, we got ourselves a horrible spot cuz..

The live band is smack right in the middle, in front of us!
GAWD. Don't even need to promote our stuff.
Cuz they can't even hear!
And theme of the week: "The Good Old Days"
Go imagine my torture.
*Edited* Okay okay. I keep telling everyone that i don't like the oldies but secretly, i sway to the melody and hum to the lyrics of the few limited songs that i know of. Plus, seeing the older people singing along, kids dancing and prancing to the uppity beats, its just priceless:)

How can you do without popcorn/candy floss/ice cream! ^^

Free Make-over for girls!

I damm auntie/cheapo.
Went to join the "Kiss me" contest just to get a free mug+a cup of coffee.
HAHAHAHAHAHA!

YVONNE! YOURS! XD

And a few others "special ones"

And last night when the flea ended,
i got this!

Yes it was this HUGE and my two lovely colleagues kept wanting
to burst it!
Thank you nini:)
And........Here's to another week!

2010-08-11T23:25:00.004+08:00

Some left over photos from my phone!

I think i look like a giant here.. :O

And though i missed out NDP's fireworks,
im more then contented with mine back in HK!
Handphone shots so... hais.
Only gonna post the more visible ones.

And my favourite one! :)
Ending off with fireworks every night, i dont blame them
at all for the SGD60+ ticket.

Something i regretted badly for not buying :'(

I went on the carousel myself.. and i felt happy+sad at one go.
This Disneyland trip was pretty much a lonely one.
Even for Ocean Park..
Shall leave my thoughts here and keep it in one corner of my heart :)

It's been almost a month since i came back and everything still feels so fresh.
It's very different cuz i was staying at my cousin's house and thus
it felt like i lived there instead of being on a holiday!
In need of a good rest still..
Sleep tight everyone :)

Lee Min Ho LG Fan Meeting

2010-08-11T22:15:00.003+08:00

Finally, it's time to update!
Not to mention Beast's one is SO overdued. Teehee.
Overall, it was a fantastic day cuz its been SOOOOO long since
i went out with Chewshih & Marina Bay Sands was oh-so-beautiful :D
Let the pictures do the talking!

HAHAHAHA I TOTAL FAN GIRL LOOK WHEN SHE'S THE REAL ONE.

GORGEOUS.GORGEOUS.GORGEOUS.

Live band performing for an hour before Lee Min Ho's appearance.
We reached there at 12plus and waited till 3.30pm.
But i consider ourselves very very lucky cuz we still managed to sit down.

And hais, i know, so mini even when zoom max ahaha.
But we cld see him quite clearly, with the help of the plasma screens aha!

One of the games where he called lucky fans to speak to them.
The calls were on loudspeaker mode though, too bad!
But as though everyone knows how to speak korean luhs.
His english isnt so good too.

Second game where he drew random pictures for fans to catch.

That's his ideal girlfriend,

And that's himself in his own eyes.
LOL RIGHT.

We left when the photo-taking/autograph session started since there's nothing else to do and he was blocked throughout.
Well basically we just aint hardcore fans la ahahahahah!

Life's been moving on pretty fast.
I'll say they're filled up with great people,unforgettable moments.
Whatever it is, i'll rmb to hold on to...

2010-08-10T02:44:00.003+08:00

Tonight, i cried for a stranger. While you were either enjoying your sunday out with your friends, complaining about life at work, or lazing around at home with your family, have you ever wondered what others are going through? I saw a tagged post from my friend's profile just now. He was conveying his condolences to his 19th yr old friend, who has just passed away yst, in a car accident in malaysia. While you were doing everything else. The girl's family is constantly tortured because they don't have passport to go over to malaysia. Being sensitive to such issues, i couldn't stop myself from visiting the girl's page. I read all the heartbroken messages people left behind. Messages that she could no longer view. People blaming her boyfriend, the one who was driving. Can you imagine the pain and torment the guy has to go through for the rest of his life? His heart, will never be at peace. All these just.. Makes me feel so small and useless. My whole heart goes out to her. A young girl, loved by many, with a long way ahead. But she's been stripped of all chances and possibilities. She will never be able to achieve anything more. What about us? Why are we still moping around, waiting for our chances to go up in flames? Life doesn't need to be perfect. It needs to be lived. R.I.P, cindy tan. Though we've never met, i'm sure i'll never forget you. This is indeed, a memorable national day.

You know that I love you so, I love you enough to let you go

2010-08-07T00:48:00.004+08:00

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye

I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road, someone's gotta go
And I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I'm already gone

I'm already gone, already gone
You can't make it feel right when you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on so I'm already gone
(Already gone-Kelly Clarkson)

Hit it on replay mode on my bus journeys to school & back home lately.
Its like you'll always have this perfect melody that fits magically to you.
Turn it up, turn it up for the people that say "We're moving on and we'll be okay".
This one's for all of you.

*Cuz of some sony entertainment policy infringement, there's no original mp3 of this song available on youtube. Its all live performances/covers by other people.
But trust me, dl this song, it only takes a min.

每天都应该要有好心情.

2010-08-04T21:00:00.002+08:00

DARN. This lucky girl from Finland actually bumped into Jaejoong
and managed to get a photo with him.
*sigh
I wonder if i'll ever see him in this lifetime.

Finally on friday, i got to slower my pace a little from all the reports and exams.
I was feeling really low on my way back home today, but when i took
a sudden look outside the window of the bus, i saw this really gorgeous rainbow.
Its amazing how a simple thing like this can warm me instantly.
I stared at it for at least a good 10mins before the sky started to darken.
Im still feeling good though tomorrow,the never-ending cycle is gonna start again.
:)

So here's to all of you, who deserve a good laugh!

GIF of the day!

大家一起加油吧！GOGOGO! (Y)

Mum's bday.

2010-08-04T20:46:00.004+08:00

From last last sunday!
Went for a Thai meal in this newly opened thai restaurant
that opened in Bedok.
It was amazingly good & you can already know so from the long queue.

Its actually ridiculously funny that we go to spend time
at the arcades whenever we go out to celebrate something.
All for fatball la!

There's loads still unspoken.
But i know i have a lifetime to do it.
Happy bday mum.
I hope you're happy, i really do.

2010-07-30T23:46:00.005+08:00

我说谎了。我一点也不好。这两个礼拜，我根本连自己都不认识了。我傻了才会让自己这个样子。不是的，这不是我想要的。我累了。但也醒了。不，我一向都是清醒的。只是，至少这次，我是认真的。我什么都不想要了。

I NEED A REST.

2010-07-27T23:23:00.003+08:00

YES, I REALLY REALLY NEED ONE.
All the report writing till the wee hours are draining me of my brain juices.
Im waking up every morning with a headache and totally worn out body.
Are your lives moving as fast as mine?
Okay, stop looking at the wobbly panda and smiling to yourself.
I know its bloody addictive. I know :)

Hongkong Day 7

2010-07-27T22:34:00.003+08:00

Finally, its a day out with the whole family!
Cuzzie brought me to eat at one of Marcus's fave place.
Teppanyaki around 50+ per pax @.@
Anyway, anyone noticed that im having Japanese meals most of the time?
Hongkong-ers love japanese food so much!

Went to visit my Great grand uncle whom i havent seen in at least 7years.

Next, The Peak!

We didn't enter the Wax Museum though.
My cuz's family went in there before except her husband and thus
it wasn't rational for them to go in together with me/ i go in with her husband/ i go in alone. hahahaha.

"你来香港怎么可以不去庙街、女人街？就算去过还是要去啊！"
Thus, my beloved cousin brought me to Temple street at night.
Disappointingly, there wasnt much around, and the stuff definitely aint
cheap as before already.

Ending off with the most satisfied delicacy i ate in HK.
Mixed pig intestines in spicy curry ~~ <3

It's getting harder to be around you. There's so much i can't say.

2010-07-25T03:44:00.003+08:00

很讨厌今晚的自己。我恨不得把自己所有的思绪全部消灭。很讨厌。。很讨厌。。这个越来越不像自己，的自己。我到底在干什么？Wae ajikdo ireohkae himdeunji?

I never do sleep early, didn't you know that?

2010-07-23T01:52:00.004+08:00

Maybe one day you'll find out the hidden meanings behind everything i said to you. But it won't matter anymore. Maybe one day you'll realise all the hints i've been dropping you. But i'd have long moved on. Maybe one day you'll wake up and find that you're missing me, and your heart starts to wonder where on this earth i could be. I was always here, just never spoken. Torn and tattered, i'm on my way.

2010-07-22T00:25:00.003+08:00

Gawd. This is so hard.
Why is it that everything i do in life, its so mediocre it almost seems invisible.
Im trying im really trying.
Just don't appear halfway and put a halt to everything.
That's all im asking from you now.

Jasmine(Ng), Kamsa-amida :))
We will brave through it all.

Insomnia.

2010-07-20T03:31:00.003+08:00

Attended my first korean lesson today with my sistaaa. Chanced upon it randomly few days ago and so happens that class starts on monday, and i only registered this morning. Probably its the fatigue creeping up on me, i cldn't really put my 100% attention and effort into the class. But only one word to describe it- TOUGH. It's like an ang moh learning how to recognise, write and speak chinese. In the past i always couldn't find any classes suitable for me while i was working. Now that i have this 8.30-10 time slot, i'm grateful for it and will most definitely be cherishing it. Everything in my life seems pretty smooth-sailing now. But what is this feeling tugging at the corners of my heart soul and mind, and causing me insomnia all over again? Please. I just wish to go to bed every night with a smile to myself, contented with my day. It's that simple.. Really.

Hongkong Day 6

2010-07-18T13:46:00.002+08:00

Had sushi for tea-time with my cousin and a set like this only costs less than SG$8!
Amazing. Why we dont have this in SG??

Even their KFC is at least 2times better then us.

Headed for 星光大道 at night.
The place with all the stars' handprints and signatures.
MOUNTAIN PEOPLE MOUNTAIN SEA.

The city lights were designed to have special effects every night at 8.30.
Yes they were pretty but even before we got to Andy Lau's handprint,
ME: I need air con. Lets go. Im dying.
Please people, avoid HK during summer time.
Even the heat at night is like being in a sauna, only worse.

Remedy ;)

Am heading to OC for the weekend flea.
Reports, BYE. For now.